Happy Chatting

Our house cats need companionship. When Mistress is home she is constantly followed and confronted by them. Amazingly enough, they seem to need even more attention than I do. My hope is to have Mistress return as planned tomorrow. Our home is not the same without her and I want it to return to normal. She and I have not seen each other since Sunday morning and I very much miss her.

Before Mistress left, I was quickly given a list of do's without any dont's. She confidently left me chores to perform, cats to appease and to satisfied my sexual needs, I remained unlocked and told to masturbate twice a day.

My chores are done and the cats seem quite content. However, the masturbation has not been completely successful. Even dressing in sissy outfits and sleeping in lingerie hasn't helped me get off as easily as it has in the past. I even bought a Penthouse magazine but my submissive training and control against masturbation has taken its toll on my ability to successfully jack off. It hasn't been a total failure but certainly my attempts have not resulted in success twice a day.

I am feeling quite guilty tonight. Twice I contributed to online communication as Kim, once Sunday starting soon after Mistress's departure and once again after work on Tuesday. Even though she didn't tell me to refrain from online chat, I am feeling chargeable. Doing so resulted in practicing my submissive existence but I still feel as though I took some advantage of Mistress's absence. I hope she approves.

Text messaging was performed within these Internet chat rooms. This also included video as well as audio chatting with a number of strange men of various ages and nationalities. I remained very submissive and open about my sexuality including my exclusive devotion to Mistress. All these men knew I was a submissive sissy CD controlled by my Mistress.

I wore some of my favorite outfits in full makeup, wig and accessories. My makeup was extremely heavy and I hardly could even recognized myself. I felt very attractive to these men who entered these chat rooms knowing that they would be communicating with a crossdresser. Many of them told me I was pretty or sexy and I even received a few I Love You's.

I quickly determined that dominant men have different needs and some are quite aggressive. Many offered to have me, to take me, to use me in there own not so gentle way. Others were submissive sissy crossdressers as well, evident on the video feed, and undoubtedly some considered themselves bi-sexual. Almost all of them wanted me to be bi-sexual instead of being exclusively owned by Mistress. My most common response to many requests was most certainly 'Mistress would not allow me'.

I lost count, after about a dozen, of the men that I virtually helped satisfy themselves with either their right or left hand, a few were ambidextrous. I wore very sexy undergarments, dresses, nylons and heels. These choices and my overall appearance constantly quenched desires on their side on the Internet.

They knew I was there to help them get off. I used nearly all of my assets and submissive skills to provide for their needs. Seeing me lift my dress up was by far the most requested event, followed by my facial appearance. Only a few commented on my breasts which I believe was because they assumed that they were not real. Although if I rubbed my breasts it regularly resulted in interest and a positive reaction. One guy even made a deal with me to masturbate while I showed him my feet. Thankfully my recent pedicure and toe ring made me feel sexy even to him.

Most of these men openly discussed their girlfriends or wives. A few belonged to their Mistress. Some were obviously gay and admitted to enjoying parts of the male anatomy.

Mistress's cock was rarely requested and was considered useless by most. It was tape gaffed and remained concealed and I delivered a response of 'Mistress would not allow it' whenever the request to see it arose. I did however lower my panties repeatedly when requested and remained so until they achieved their desire. My lipstick was thick and bright red. Men regularly came because of my mouth and overall facial appearance. One even soiled his own camera as my mouth remained open and close to his computer screen.

The camera was very kind to me as I constantly was considered at least 10 years younger than my actual age. Many were surprised to find that I was actually older then they were. My 'Thank You' was always included along with my real age. I acted and communicated as feminine as possible. Comments were made confirming my ability to do so. When the subject arose, I was considered passable and quite feminine. Compared to many of the other crossdressers I saw on my display, I tend to agree. However, I still consider myself only somewhat passable even though I thoroughly enjoyed their positive feedback.

If you are reading this now, it is because Mistress has returned, read this post from a draft and has allowed me to publish it. Regardless, I am writing this to divulge this information to Mistress as I cannot keep any of my thoughts or actions a secret from her. Mistress owns and will know where I have been while under her constant control.

Happy Holes

This is a then and now post.

Many years ago, I created a 'Glory Hole' through which my wife would suck on my cock. It has been years since she has serviced me this way. Now I kneel for her to provide the services. Last night while feminized, I sucked on Mistress's cock through the happy hole.






Before our D/s, I was able to cum on my wife, make her messy and not even suffer any consequences for my behaviour. Now, as my Mistress, she is free to return the favor and last night her strapped on 'squirty' cock dripped on me after she gushed on my face.






Mistress did not outright say so, but I think she was entertained last night and enjoyed the domination.

Happy Choices

As the popular phrase states, 'I have made my choice and now I have to live with it'. Without a doubt, I am willing and able to do just that. I am really happy with it as well.

It has been over a year since I researched and discussed a D/s relationship with my loving wife. Certainly my choice to share my thoughts with her have been a turning point in our marriage. Our union has existed for over twenty years now and I can confidently say that, overall, it has been personally gratifying for me. My wife and I have discussed our D/s relationship choice at length lately. We both agree that we made the right choice as our bond has advanced along with respect and understanding.


 It was my choice to give myself completely to her, my Mistress. She owns me and controls me 24/7, even when I spend time away from her direct contact. She locks me in chastity during my day as a constant reminder of her dominating ownership. My submissive will is strong and I am entirely grateful that she is prepared to fulfill my needs.

I love the choices this relationship provides me along with the ability to share them with someone special to me. This post is about the choices I have now for which I am extremely grateful to have acquired. There are so many simple and not so simple choices available to me today, both mentally and physically. My choices are endless and expanding every day. Here is a quick list of choices I hope to never go without:

• Gender... I can be either or both when my mind lets me choose.
• Lingerie... My absolute favorite human creation and now I can wear it whenever I choose.
• Intercourse... I give and I receive and now must admit, I love having the choice to receive.
• Attire... Outwardly, I may dress masculine but adore my choice of feminizing within.
• Hygiene... It is my choice to be clean, shaved and fresh inside and out.
• Kinky... My sexual health has greatly improved and I choose to be unrefined.
• Ownership... I choose to belong to someone, to be used, abused, controlled and trained to be improved.
• Complexity... Simple and boring are not traits I choose to be.

Recently I chose to dress up an take pictures of a fantasy come true. I hope you are entertained by their inclusion within this post as I enjoy sharing them with my readers.

Happy and a Pervert and You Know It

Mistress and I spent our Saturday doing things that needed to be done around the home. She helped on school projects and I started my yearly tree pruning task. I was left unlocked from the CB all day to avoid the painful or damaging side effects of being so active.

Later that evening, I was sent to the shower. Removing my robe from the closet to find a note from Mistress attached to baby blue, silk and lace lingerie.

'Shower and shave. You will be completely smooth and shaved. This is your sissy lingerie for tonight. Don't forget any of your rules, you have three. Shut Up, Obey Me And Do So On Your Knees.'

This was a clear sign that the busy day was over and the D/s evening was about to begin.

I thoroughly shaved my overdue five o'clock shadow as well as my legs, crotch and underarms. After washing my hair, rinsing and turning off the water, I toweled dry and put on my night wear. Standing in front the mirror to brush my hair and teeth, my reflection showed how perverted I had become.

I got on my knees as I opened the door to the bedroom. Upon arriving to Mistress, she was preparing a set of restraint ropes and leather cuffs.

'Come here you worthless pervert. Get my submissive sissy over here for inspection... WHAT IS THIS? I FEEL STUBBLE !!!!'

Mistress got quite upset and I felt even more worthless than I already had. 'Go get the inflatable gag from the D/s drawers next to the bed and do it NOW.' Kneeling before her, Mistress inserted the gag into my mouth and buckled it around the back of my head. She then inflated it until my facial expression showed fear and discomfort.

'You sissy perverted submissive slut. Look at you. I own you and since that worthless cock is twitching between your legs, you like it... Get back into that bathroom and shave again. Use one of the pink razors this time. If I find anymore stubble, I will violate another worthless hole of yours. You better get the job done right, you are running out of holes. Go now, you worthless cunt.'

I crawled back into the bathroom, shaved until I was sure I was smooth and returned to Mistress.

'Now my sissy, get on your back in the middle of my bed. I will inspect your results after you are properly restrained and tightly secure. I changed my mind regarding your punishment. I will whip you. Even if you are smooth enough for me, I will whip you. If I find any stubble, you will just be whipped harder. Its a simple solution for me and no matter what the results are, I get to enjoy whipping you. For my benefit, I hope you failed again, you worthless cunt.'

Restrained spread eagle and blindfolded, Mistress used her crop as an inspection tool to touch exposed flesh and land blows. Smooth, soft skin became hot and painful as her whip contacted my body.

'I love the pleasure of seeing the results of my work. I love the pink and red marks that this leaves on my submissive sissy.'

Laying down on the bed beside me, Mistress whispers into my ear.

'I want you to know what I am going to do tonight. You and I want these things because you are perverted and we desire for them to happen. I will insert a finger of ginger into your tight submissive fuck hole. It will burn and cause you discomfort as you are figged. You will be my sissy tonight, my perverted submissive slut of a sissy. I will remove this gag inflated into your mouth before putting earrings and lipstick on you. You will look and be even more femme then you are right now. I will strap on a dildo for you to suck. You will choke as I force it into your throat. It is good that you have been using it to practice on your gag reflex. Your progress will be tested thoroughly tonight as you become my cock sucking whore.'

'It will make me wet to watch you struggle, swallow and choke on my cock. This will continue until my candy is dripping for your worship between my legs. After I feel that the blow job is complete, I will sit on your face and use it for my pleasure. You will find it difficult to breath underneath and between my legs. You will only be allowed to breath when the cock between your legs twitches. When you need a breath, the cock will speak for you. Do a good job worshiping me and I will gush and spray into your mouth and onto your face. I know that you will because this is what you want, you perverted submissive cunt.'

'You will be let out of these restraints only to be locked up again in the CB. I hope you enjoyed your time unlocked today but that time is over. Now it is time to milk your prostrate and have the locked cock excrete the contents for you to consume. I love owning a submissive cum slut that swallows its own body fluids. Tonight it will be slimy, gooey liquid from your prostrate. Your future shows promise of much more.'

'You are happy and a pervert and you know it.'

Happy with Dinner Out

Mistress has been suggesting that she take Kim out for dinner sometime. Kim is my sissy name. Kim is my submissive slutty, dirty whore name. It's fun to be Kim.We both seem to enjoy ourselves when Mistress has her encounters with my feminine side.

She has taken Kim out in public before. Kim has pumped gas at the local Costco, twice a fast food drive through, as well as shopping in an adult toy store, at the mall and thrift store. But out to dinner is certainly closer to the public then ever before.

I wouldn't call myself passable as a cross-dresser but at a quick glance, I think I am considered female when I am Kim.

Thursday night it happened. I returned home later than normal as I had been out of town that day. She greeted me quite aggressively, told me to remove my clothes and proceeded to whip me into a sissy submissive within her control. After she used me with her strap-on, she sent me to the shower and told me that Kim should return instead of me.

I put on Kim's makeup then tucked and taped the cock between my legs. Got dressed in a new pair of black jeans and the black boots that Mistress gave me for Christmas. Put on a red blouse, white sweater, hoop earrings and a favorite wig. As requested, Kim returned to Mistress.

Mistress and Kim went out to dinner. I think we both enjoyed our time out together, I know I certainly did. We sat in a booth, ordered drinks and dinner. Mistress did the talking to the restaurant employees, especially since she had sent me to the Ladies room just before the waiter took our order.

We chatted, I whispered and the other customers didn't even seem to care about or notice me. By the end of the meal, I was over the fear of being 'caught'. Mistress pointed out that questioning my femininity would be as dangerous to someone as asking whether a woman is pregnant.

After dinner, we returned home and Mistress told me to get into something more comfortable. The late night that followed is a story within itself. I'd be happy to tell you more if you are interested.

Happy 'Belated' New Year

Well, at least it's still January as I post this message to wish everyone a Happy New Year.

Mistress and I entered the year in full stride. The holidays have come and past along with the family encounters and events. Through multiple visits our D/s relationship continued to swell secretly hidden behind our vanilla presentation.

Tonight, Mistress is 'out with the girls' and left me with a list of tasks to perform until she returns. One of which is to post to my blog to include my self-portrait to show how I was sent off to work today.

As you can see, I was back into the CB today. I battled most of the day recovering my 'belongings' as they slipped and drifted out of minimal containment of the rather useless g-string panties.


I really have grown to dislike the CB. I find it rather uncomfortable, a burden to manage and conceal. Mistress, on the other hand, seems to enjoy this arrangement and likes how it appears and functions. It has been over a year since Mistress acquired this device and she repeatedly uses it to enforce her ownership of me. I need her to own me and therefore I wear it proudly and willingly, even though I sometimes whine about having to do so.

I have a lot to do around the house this evening to prepare for Mistress's return and therefore I must get busy performing my tasks. Besides posting this blog entry, I must clean up the front room, arrange the Christmas boxes, collate and staple paperwork before preparing myself for her arrival. When she enters the bedroom, I am to be tied to the beams across the ceiling with a dildo deep in my ass. All the while cross-dressed in full makeup, breasts forms and wig wearing my full length wedding gown and appropriate heels.

Like I said, I have a lot to do so I'd better get to it.

Happy with Mistress

To start with, this post is sort of like 'calling the kettle black' as I have not posted an entry to my blog in quite some time. Being relatively new to this blog site I can only imagine that many blogs start agressively to taper off over time. My actions are certainly evidence of such a pattern.


MsMarie, we miss you. Your blog has been quite the inspiration for Mistress and I. Your lack of blog posts has not gone unnoticed. Mistress and I have reluctantly had to venture elsewhere to both entertain ourselves and seek influencial direction.


Having said this, my Mistress has evolved into a research wizard and become enlightened with a broader range of D/s information. Her latest habits are having a definate impact on our relationship. She has turned into a powerful woman who enjoys using me to demonstrate her newfound knowledge.

As it is my preference, I feel owned by Mistress. Her thoughtful patterns of domination have improved her ability to use me on a regular basis now. She has most definately blossomed into a goddess of intent and set goals to acheive her own desires without simply providing for mine.

She is now most comfortable with her ability to control me without inhibition. This particular issue had been a frustratingly hurtfull condition just a few short months ago. Since this hurtle has been overcome, we are more able to enjoy our D/s relationship wthout damaging side effects.

On a personal level, events have enlightened  me to understand my desires. I am much more aware of the advantages of being forced to partake in affairs that I naturally wish to do. Chastity for one, is no longer an intense turn-on for me and thus gives Mistress the positive power to use it to her benefit. The ease at which Mistress is now able to command respect is a huge advantage for her and having instruments available for her sole benefit is quite powerful.

Forced feminization, while still progressing, is also becoming quite a tool for Mistress. She increasely enjoys the ability to entertain herself and dominate me as her submissive. She now regularly desides on my appearance and dress. She enjoys researching and acquiring new garments to subject me to. What was once an occasional 'beautification' has now become a continual event. Not only does she control my clothing, she monitors and corrects my cleanliness and natural virility. I have always enjoyed my mental ability to partake in feminization but being forced to do so on Mistress's schedule is a most gratifying scenario for me.

Mistress enjoys having a cock in her pussy. She also rather enjoys giving blowjobs. This does however pose a problem for us as my natural ability to maintain constantly high labido levels are regularly compromised following my orgasms. Far to often, for us both, my orgasm concludes our encounters and rarely occurs timely enough to satisfy the both of us. We are working on solving this delema. The main reason I am writing this blog entry today is due to last night's wonderful encounter on this particular subject.


Here's what transpired:

Leading up to last night, Mistress and I had been reading stories on Literotica. We have been enjoying finding fictional stories and making them a real part of our life. We certainly have a few favorites that we have shared and these include the subjects of training, domination and humilation.

Last night's success started early this past week on evening after I returned from work. Mistress Skype'd demanding me to install the CB and insert a butt plug. This request although is not uncommon was so this time as it occured much earlier than I had expected. I did as I was told and immediately performed the task. Later that night, Mistress sent me to the shower, dressed me for a sexual encounter and the proceeded to fuck me quite agressively with one of her larger black strapon dildos.

A couple of mornings later, I was intercepted on my way out the door as I left for work. I soon found out that my nipples would be subjected to a rather intensive all-day 'grooming'. This assult consisted of two pieces of sandpaper adhered inside my shirt. If I tried to explain what this attack did to me I wouldn't be doing it justice. Do it yourself if you really need to know.

Yesterday afternoon Mistress and I discussed our goals and frustrations of having cock in her pussy. This put the wheels in motion.

Later in the evening I was sent to the shower and followed by feminizing myself from head to toe with a wig, makeup, breast forms, bra, new dress, tight panties, thigh highs and my favorite Mary Jane heels. During the day I shopped for matching accessories of necklace, wrist watch and handheld purse, all in pink to match the pink in my new sundress that I was now wearing for the first time.

I Skype'd Mistress in the front room to announce my readiness. Following her completing a chapter of a Literotica story she came into our bedroom to see her pretty submissive. I was all a glow showing myself to her with what I felt to be my best attempt at feminizing to date. She seemed to be quite pleased with my results as well. Mistress acquired a few garments for herself and rushed into the shower to prepare for what certainly would be a night to remember.

She returned to me with a cup of water and a Viagra. This was immediately followed with a application of 'delay cream' and a natural non-latex condum on her cock that I wield and maintain for her. Rather than compromise my new sundress, Mistress had thoughtfully set out a very sexy nightgown for me to change into and I did so.

Now, if Mistress were telling this story, she would likely spend more time explaining what happened next.

Both the Viagra and the cream were taking effect and I was both physically and mentally ready to use them. Based on statements that Mistress had been making, she was attempting to control the encounter that would involve installing her strapon and fucking her pretty submissive slut of a husband. I was quite pleased that she didn't become angry or aggressive due to my failure to comply to her unsuccessful attempt to have me assist her. I blaintly disregarded her request for my chosing and acguiring of a dildo to mount.

Instead, I pulled down the covers on the bed. Thankfully, she took the clue and lied down. I removed my Mary Janes and joined her on the bed.

It only took a few minutes of my oral assault on her cunt for her to show interest in the condition of her cock. I knew it was quite rigid and ready but I was enjoying myself between her legs while I messed up my lip gloss and negotiated my long hair. I gave myself a few more minutes of what I thought was a personal thrill before I lifted my gown and positioned the hem of the tight panties below my crotch.

I mounted Mistress. She orgasmed in a very short time. Much to my delight, her cunt sprayed and gushed providing me with a favorite condition of mine, being wet and smelling like pussy. I continued to fuck her without hesitation or concern for my own unwanted sexual release. Her sexual gratification was all that I wanted.

I helped her turn over onto hands and knees allowing me to reenter her from behind. Her wave after wave of orgasms continued to provide me with the gush of fluids that I remained to enjoy.

Mistress suggested that we move her to the edge of the bed while I stood beside. This turned out to be a excellent approach and angle into her cunt. I easily swayed and pounded into her while grasping her hips for support and control. Our cock was in prime form as it reframed from eruption as it pounded into her pussy as it gushed and sprayed over what not included my entire legs, feet and onto the floor.

Time was irrelevent as I continued to fuck Mistress. At one point, I let my gaze defer from her backside to notice the clock on the dresser displaying 2:34. At that point I had been fucking her in a constant wave of orgasms for over two hours.

Certain that Mistress was satisfied and that my goal had been reached, the condum was removed. I mounted her in the missionary position as she played with my thoughtfully prepared nipples behind my breast forms. The locks of my long hair brushed her face as unloaded my cum into her swollen cunt.

In the end, Mistress glowed almost as bright as I had during my time of feminization a few hours before.

We removed and replaced the soiled sheets on the bed and settled in for a blistfull sleep. I woke this morning just after 10am next to Mistress with another hardon. She rolled onto her back as I positioned myself to penetrate her and play with her clit. Over the next half hour or so, I was able to get her to orgasm many times. I sure love how accommodating her cunt gets after a night of hard fucking.

I absolutely want to repeat this event tonight... Wish me luck even though good fortune is on my side.

, Happy

Happy week in review

Here's a list of the D/s events that happened to me this week:

• Strap-on sex
• Horsewhipped
• Golden showers
• Gagged
• 24/7 Chastity
• Cunt worship
• Pet caged
• Tampon wear
• Blindfolded
• Spanked
• Foot worship
• Handcuffed
• Paddled
• Sucked dildo
• Butt plugged
• Feminized
• Ate, doggy style
• Gave massage
• Swallowed cum
• Gave pedicure
• Asshole worship
• Nipple torture
• Ass fisted
• Electro-sex
• Ate creampie

I thoroughly enjoyed Her attention and dedication to dominating me this week. Comparably, my occasional pleasing and pleasuring of Mistress was overshadowed by Her desire to regularly abuse me.

What a week !!!

Happy bride

My wife, the groom, and I have renewed our FLR vows. We both agreed to a prenuptial that consists of a one week a month D/s schedule. Today is day 4 of our return to FLR week for this month.

Even though I wasn't actually a virgin, I wore white.

We consummated our marriage with Her, again my Mistress, giving me a thorough thrashing with Her horsewhip. There is somewhat of a dispute regarding how many of my bruises were caused by Her release on my backside. Her position on the matter is that some of them were caused by the yard work that I performed last weekend. Regardless, She certainly left Her mark on me.

For the most part, our return to FLR has gone quite favorably for the both of us. I have been focused on letting Her control our D/s events and She has been much more aggressive at doing so.

We seem to be going through a reversal of wills whereas I have resolved myself to the understanding that we will return to vanilla after week's end. She on the other hand has taken a stance that we will not be returning to vanilla sex and refrain from doing so until we again return to a FLR.

I have more blogging to do once I get my thoughts organized enough to do so. But for now, as you can see, we are back and I must say, better than ever!

Thanks for the heartfelt thoughts and concerns on both of our blogs. The support is greatly appreciated !!!

Happy TGIF

Another week has past in my illustrious career, well, almost anyway. Tomorrow is Friday and around my office it's considered an unofficial 'dress down day'. Unbeknownst to my coworkers, I regularly 'dress up' under my casual outerwear. For years now, I have worn many different combinations of female undergarments. Panties, bras, garters, slips and nylons have been some of the attire I've secretly don. On occasion, I have even worn lingerie to work.

I regularly ask Mistress to contribute. It is even more fun and exciting for me when She decides or is aware of my attire. I have to say though that since we have engaged in our D/s lifestyle, I am wearing panties and bras regularly which makes Friday's choices more spunky than ever. I don't yet know what tomorrow will bring but I am confident that it will not be masculine or boring.

For me, this is the best part of being submissive. Wait... I take that back... Eating pussy while it squirts is first on my list, 'Dress up day' is a distant second.