Happy to ride

Last week Mistress sent me a message containing a link to a device for sale on eBay. It was called a 'bondage horse'. She wanted one and suggested that I make Her one as a present for Valentines Day. Now let me make myself candidly clear, I would have made it for Her regardless of reason. This device directly targets the needs of a submissive and provides complete control to the Dominant.


Ours stands just over two feet high and over three feet long. The padding on top is thick , comfortable and cleanable. The hold-downs are very strong and abundant. Its structure is 2x4s and attachments rated at 300lbs. Areas of contact are covered with Naugahyde vinyl and collaspes within a few seconds. The legs are paired and connected with the use of saw-horse hinges.

Don't you think it came together well? Do you want one? It can be made in any combination of length and height. A variety of colors are also available. Are you needy enough to acquire one of you own? Are you a handyman? If not, let's talk.

Happy planet - not lately

Some days the planet seems to be off it's axis. It still spins but it wobbles and jerks.

Something I said last night tilted my world. Most disturbing is that I didn't even know it at the time. To me, my words seemed simple and innocent. But to my Mistress Wife, the phrase "Don't worry about it" was received as an attack on Her judgement. OK, I do admit it and hindsight being 20/20, I failed and should have known better. Ironically, the phrase was a response given regarding the content of this blog. I should be punished and taught some manners.

In my defense... Ya, I know, this part doesn't matter so I'll try to keep it brief. So far, my week has not been stress free. For some reason going back to work has been hard this year. To make matters worse, my co-workers bailed leaving me to cover. Although it is almost done, packing up and storing away the holiday decorations is never a 'happy time'.

Past experience has shown that over time this planet with stabilize and recover. I only wish it would do so sooner. Why can't I simply be punished, taught the lesson and then pardoned? This is how She raised Her children. Am I too old to be scolded, spanked and put in time-out? Does it makes sense to use 'cold-shoulder' and abstinence techniques to promote punishment as done in a vanilla relationship? There must be a way to take advantage of these Dominate/submissive roles. Most importantly by getting the point across, releasing aggressions, learning the lesson and moving on to enjoy life.

On a positive note... I have been doing well on my resolutions. I'm not 100% and I knew up front that the 'Strength and Endurance' resolution would be the hardest to obtain but the other promises have been upheld. I'm happy to say that I'm not craving cigarettes, I'm horny as ever, my cock is in lock-down and She owns my body.

Happy New Year

Well now, 2011 is here and promises to be my first full year as a submissive male in a female lead marriage.

Last night at midnight, I wasn't watching the ball fall in New York or raising a glass of champagne with a group of friends. No, not at all. Instead, I was tied spread eagle on Her bed dressed in woman's undergarments with my Mistress's mouth around my loose, hard penis.

The evening evolved from having our children and a few of their friends here to having the house to ourselves.This presented the perfect opportunity for me to fondly serve my Wife. I set a chair and a stool in our bathroom, plugged in a hot wax machine and gave her a pedicure and manicure while she read a book on the new e-Reader I gave her for Christmas. I'm pretty sure she enjoyed the event as well.

Just after midnight my Mistress set a few new ground rules of our relationship. First and foremost we will be focused on my respect training with new punishments. For example, until now wearing a bra has been used to 'keep me focused' but now that I prefer to wear one, as a punishment I will be denied wearing one instead. We also will be implementing a 'Naughty Spot' much like linewriter has been using although we have discussed using a step stool in our closet instead of a spot of carpet.

I have been issued additional changes for 2011. A couple of these are centered around her peace and comfort. Now that we have established a submissive attire and the ability to be locked in chastity 24/7, I will no longer be 'bothering' her for inspections or instructions. I will instead wear the CB, a clean bra, panties and camisole every day.

Late last night I also was told that I will not be having an orgasm until around Valentine's Day. I also will be routinely bound to the bed while I sleep. Of all the resolutions discussed these two are probably going to have the most impact on me. Not since puberty have I been denied orgasm relief and being tied to the bed will make the nocturnal erections a sadistic event. I suppose both of these changes are intended to reduce my interruptions and allow her to sleep through the night. If this is true, I'm betting I will soon be both bound and gagged because of the likelihood of incessant begging.