Happy Chatting

Our house cats need companionship. When Mistress is home she is constantly followed and confronted by them. Amazingly enough, they seem to need even more attention than I do. My hope is to have Mistress return as planned tomorrow. Our home is not the same without her and I want it to return to normal. She and I have not seen each other since Sunday morning and I very much miss her.

Before Mistress left, I was quickly given a list of do's without any dont's. She confidently left me chores to perform, cats to appease and to satisfied my sexual needs, I remained unlocked and told to masturbate twice a day.

My chores are done and the cats seem quite content. However, the masturbation has not been completely successful. Even dressing in sissy outfits and sleeping in lingerie hasn't helped me get off as easily as it has in the past. I even bought a Penthouse magazine but my submissive training and control against masturbation has taken its toll on my ability to successfully jack off. It hasn't been a total failure but certainly my attempts have not resulted in success twice a day.

I am feeling quite guilty tonight. Twice I contributed to online communication as Kim, once Sunday starting soon after Mistress's departure and once again after work on Tuesday. Even though she didn't tell me to refrain from online chat, I am feeling chargeable. Doing so resulted in practicing my submissive existence but I still feel as though I took some advantage of Mistress's absence. I hope she approves.

Text messaging was performed within these Internet chat rooms. This also included video as well as audio chatting with a number of strange men of various ages and nationalities. I remained very submissive and open about my sexuality including my exclusive devotion to Mistress. All these men knew I was a submissive sissy CD controlled by my Mistress.

I wore some of my favorite outfits in full makeup, wig and accessories. My makeup was extremely heavy and I hardly could even recognized myself. I felt very attractive to these men who entered these chat rooms knowing that they would be communicating with a crossdresser. Many of them told me I was pretty or sexy and I even received a few I Love You's.

I quickly determined that dominant men have different needs and some are quite aggressive. Many offered to have me, to take me, to use me in there own not so gentle way. Others were submissive sissy crossdressers as well, evident on the video feed, and undoubtedly some considered themselves bi-sexual. Almost all of them wanted me to be bi-sexual instead of being exclusively owned by Mistress. My most common response to many requests was most certainly 'Mistress would not allow me'.

I lost count, after about a dozen, of the men that I virtually helped satisfy themselves with either their right or left hand, a few were ambidextrous. I wore very sexy undergarments, dresses, nylons and heels. These choices and my overall appearance constantly quenched desires on their side on the Internet.

They knew I was there to help them get off. I used nearly all of my assets and submissive skills to provide for their needs. Seeing me lift my dress up was by far the most requested event, followed by my facial appearance. Only a few commented on my breasts which I believe was because they assumed that they were not real. Although if I rubbed my breasts it regularly resulted in interest and a positive reaction. One guy even made a deal with me to masturbate while I showed him my feet. Thankfully my recent pedicure and toe ring made me feel sexy even to him.

Most of these men openly discussed their girlfriends or wives. A few belonged to their Mistress. Some were obviously gay and admitted to enjoying parts of the male anatomy.

Mistress's cock was rarely requested and was considered useless by most. It was tape gaffed and remained concealed and I delivered a response of 'Mistress would not allow it' whenever the request to see it arose. I did however lower my panties repeatedly when requested and remained so until they achieved their desire. My lipstick was thick and bright red. Men regularly came because of my mouth and overall facial appearance. One even soiled his own camera as my mouth remained open and close to his computer screen.

The camera was very kind to me as I constantly was considered at least 10 years younger than my actual age. Many were surprised to find that I was actually older then they were. My 'Thank You' was always included along with my real age. I acted and communicated as feminine as possible. Comments were made confirming my ability to do so. When the subject arose, I was considered passable and quite feminine. Compared to many of the other crossdressers I saw on my display, I tend to agree. However, I still consider myself only somewhat passable even though I thoroughly enjoyed their positive feedback.

If you are reading this now, it is because Mistress has returned, read this post from a draft and has allowed me to publish it. Regardless, I am writing this to divulge this information to Mistress as I cannot keep any of my thoughts or actions a secret from her. Mistress owns and will know where I have been while under her constant control.

Happy to be back

For me it has been a long week but now it's over and I am back to what I want to do, be a submissive husband to my Mistress Wife. She also was busy last week and therefore minimally dedicated time to our D/s relationship. As a result, tensions mounted and climaxed on Friday morning. Rather than delve into details let's just say that Her wishes of me weren't received and I chose a wrong path or two. We worked through some of our differences throughout the day on Friday before ending with a hot and exciting session.

Hot Wax Art

My Mistress and I enjoyed Her creativity when She bound me spread on the bed and plugged my ass, then followed up by tying my cock and balls to the foot board. I was left this way to wait while She showered and prepared Herself. Upon Her return, She lit a red taper candle and proceeded to drip hot wax from my chest to my knees. Proud of Her accomplishment, She took a few pictures to document the achievement.

After that She removed the butt plug, strapped on a dildo and fucked me as hard and as long as ever before.

Denial Return Failure

I have got to resolve or cure my heartburn as it has become a reason for personal failures. It is limiting my abilities to sustain many positions. My Mistress also allowed me to skip promised cleanup of the creampie I created that ended my three week orgasm denial. Thinking about it now, I'm at the opinion that She should not have allowed me to avoid my obligation and training simply because I wasn't feeling up to it. To Her credit, She wasn't focusing on Her domination skills while glowing from the series of orgasms She had just endured.

Golden Showers

Ms.Marie and sissy have sparked interest amongst their followers, myself included. My Wife has twice been able to urinate on me. Both times resulted in powerful D/s response. I am finding that posts and comments regarding domination through urination to be increasingly entertaining for me. I hope to hear more stories on the subject and maybe even post results of my own experiences that I now wish to endure.

I looking at this as a three step process:

1. Urinate to dominate
2. Licking Her clean
3. Swallowing 'nectar'

Can you add to this list?

Happy to be woke up

My Mistress Wife likes to play in the middle of the night. Last night was a perfect example of this when She woke me around three o'clock. She immediately ordered me to retrieve our snake bite suction cups. I fulfilled Her request and returned to Her side knowing that She would apply them to my nipples.

For those of you unfamiliar with how these suction cups work I will try to explain them. They are rubber, shaped like a small cup with about a 3/4 inch opening and about an inch deep. To install them you simply squeeze to collapse, place the opening on the spot to be sucked and release. Her favorite spot to attach these suckers is on each of my nipples. Within seconds after they are attached to my chest, my cock will respond into a full fledged hard-on.

If you have been following my blog you may know that I am a 24/7 chastity device wearer. I wear a popular CB-6000 that, like many devices, installs over the penis and held in place with a ring around the balls. From my research, it is my understanding that it is one of the more comfortable devices to wear. This may be true but when you get a hard-on while wearing one of these it becomes a sadistic torturous cage. The base of your cock expands and the entire cage including your balls is pushed from your pelvis as far as your anatomy will allow. You will find out real quickly that you will want to be shaved and lubricated when this occurs.

So there I was, wiggling around on the bed, dressed in a soft nightgown, nipples sucked and cock tortured contained in the CB. My Mistress had me exactly where She likes me. I admit, I like it too. She laid on Her chest while I massaged Her back, butt, legs and feet. Then She rolled onto Her back when I licked, sucked and fingered Her to orgasm.

We are on day five of a five week orgasm denial schedule so the CB was not to be removed. I begged for release anyway knowing that I would be denied. Instead I was ordered to retrieve and install Her newest strap-on harness and over sized dildo. After that She fucked my ass hard while I laid on my back, face down on the bed and watched from below as I sat from above.

I had been milked and my nightgown was soiled. After I cleaned myself and our toys, we both went to sleep.



I overslept this morning and my Wife was already in the process of making the lunches when I asked to be unlocked for my shower. She wears the key to the CB on Her neck which She used to open the small metal lock before I headed for the bathroom shower. To keep the metal lock from rusting, I replaced it with a temporary plastic variety. The plastic version however is not a lock. It's purpose is to keep the CB assembled during cleaning.

My Wife was in the bathroom preparing to leave for school carpool when I exited the shower. I toweled and put on my rob as She headed out of the door. Now, if you have been keeping up with the scene, you might also recognize that I am at this point able to make my own choice regarding my chastity. She left me alone in the house, UNLOCKED !!!!


Come back again as I will post the outcome. To make things more interesting, leave a comment to explain what you would have done. We might even get lucky and have a Mistress explain our punishment or reward.

Happy with my Mistress

My Mistress is absolutely enjoying Her dominate role today. It all started when She woke me up in the middle of the night to chastise, butt plug and handcuff me. I wasn't able to get much additional sleep before daybreak arrived finding me dominated, whimpering and incredibly horny. She found my condition pleasing to Her and continued to tease and deny me. Only after a lengthy neck, back and foot message was I allowed to touch Her pussy. She would not have admitted it at the time but She must have been sexually excited as well because Her orgasm came quickly. The handcuffs were then removed and I was sent away to shower while She returned to continue a night's sleep. Now I sit here exhausted and chaste to blog about how much I enjoyed the experience as I find myself further in love and devoted to my Mistress Wife.