Our house cats need companionship. When Mistress is home she is constantly followed and confronted by them. Amazingly enough, they seem to need even more attention than I do. My hope is to have Mistress return as planned tomorrow. Our home is not the same without her and I want it to return to normal. She and I have not seen each other since Sunday morning and I very much miss her.
Before Mistress left, I was quickly given a list of do's without any dont's. She confidently left me chores to perform, cats to appease and to satisfied my sexual needs, I remained unlocked and told to masturbate twice a day.
My chores are done and the cats seem quite content. However, the masturbation has not been completely successful. Even dressing in sissy outfits and sleeping in lingerie hasn't helped me get off as easily as it has in the past. I even bought a Penthouse magazine but my submissive training and control against masturbation has taken its toll on my ability to successfully jack off. It hasn't been a total failure but certainly my attempts have not resulted in success twice a day.
I am feeling quite guilty tonight. Twice I contributed to online communication as Kim, once Sunday starting soon after Mistress's departure and once again after work on Tuesday. Even though she didn't tell me to refrain from online chat, I am feeling chargeable. Doing so resulted in practicing my submissive existence but I still feel as though I took some advantage of Mistress's absence. I hope she approves.
Text messaging was performed within these Internet chat rooms. This also included video as well as audio chatting with a number of strange men of various ages and nationalities. I remained very submissive and open about my sexuality including my exclusive devotion to Mistress. All these men knew I was a submissive sissy CD controlled by my Mistress.
I wore some of my favorite outfits in full makeup, wig and accessories. My makeup was extremely heavy and I hardly could even recognized myself. I felt very attractive to these men who entered these chat rooms knowing that they would be communicating with a crossdresser. Many of them told me I was pretty or sexy and I even received a few I Love You's.
I quickly determined that dominant men have different needs and some are quite aggressive. Many offered to have me, to take me, to use me in there own not so gentle way. Others were submissive sissy crossdressers as well, evident on the video feed, and undoubtedly some considered themselves bi-sexual. Almost all of them wanted me to be bi-sexual instead of being exclusively owned by Mistress. My most common response to many requests was most certainly 'Mistress would not allow me'.
I lost count, after about a dozen, of the men that I virtually helped satisfy themselves with either their right or left hand, a few were ambidextrous. I wore very sexy undergarments, dresses, nylons and heels. These choices and my overall appearance constantly quenched desires on their side on the Internet.
They knew I was there to help them get off. I used nearly all of my assets and submissive skills to provide for their needs. Seeing me lift my dress up was by far the most requested event, followed by my facial appearance. Only a few commented on my breasts which I believe was because they assumed that they were not real. Although if I rubbed my breasts it regularly resulted in interest and a positive reaction. One guy even made a deal with me to masturbate while I showed him my feet. Thankfully my recent pedicure and toe ring made me feel sexy even to him.
Most of these men openly discussed their girlfriends or wives. A few belonged to their Mistress. Some were obviously gay and admitted to enjoying parts of the male anatomy.
Mistress's cock was rarely requested and was considered useless by most. It was tape gaffed and remained concealed and I delivered a response of 'Mistress would not allow it' whenever the request to see it arose. I did however lower my panties repeatedly when requested and remained so until they achieved their desire. My lipstick was thick and bright red. Men regularly came because of my mouth and overall facial appearance. One even soiled his own camera as my mouth remained open and close to his computer screen.
The camera was very kind to me as I constantly was considered at least 10 years younger than my actual age. Many were surprised to find that I was actually older then they were. My 'Thank You' was always included along with my real age. I acted and communicated as feminine as possible. Comments were made confirming my ability to do so. When the subject arose, I was considered passable and quite feminine. Compared to many of the other crossdressers I saw on my display, I tend to agree. However, I still consider myself only somewhat passable even though I thoroughly enjoyed their positive feedback.
If you are reading this now, it is because Mistress has returned, read this post from a draft and has allowed me to publish it. Regardless, I am writing this to divulge this information to Mistress as I cannot keep any of my thoughts or actions a secret from her. Mistress owns and will know where I have been while under her constant control.
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Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Happy 'Belated' New Year
Well, at least it's still January as I post this message to wish everyone a Happy New Year.
Mistress and I entered the year in full stride. The holidays have come and past along with the family encounters and events. Through multiple visits our D/s relationship continued to swell secretly hidden behind our vanilla presentation.
Tonight, Mistress is 'out with the girls' and left me with a list of tasks to perform until she returns. One of which is to post to my blog to include my self-portrait to show how I was sent off to work today.
As you can see, I was back into the CB today. I battled most of the day recovering my 'belongings' as they slipped and drifted out of minimal containment of the rather useless g-string panties.
I really have grown to dislike the CB. I find it rather uncomfortable, a burden to manage and conceal. Mistress, on the other hand, seems to enjoy this arrangement and likes how it appears and functions. It has been over a year since Mistress acquired this device and she repeatedly uses it to enforce her ownership of me. I need her to own me and therefore I wear it proudly and willingly, even though I sometimes whine about having to do so.
I have a lot to do around the house this evening to prepare for Mistress's return and therefore I must get busy performing my tasks. Besides posting this blog entry, I must clean up the front room, arrange the Christmas boxes, collate and staple paperwork before preparing myself for her arrival. When she enters the bedroom, I am to be tied to the beams across the ceiling with a dildo deep in my ass. All the while cross-dressed in full makeup, breasts forms and wig wearing my full length wedding gown and appropriate heels.
Like I said, I have a lot to do so I'd better get to it.
Mistress and I entered the year in full stride. The holidays have come and past along with the family encounters and events. Through multiple visits our D/s relationship continued to swell secretly hidden behind our vanilla presentation.
Tonight, Mistress is 'out with the girls' and left me with a list of tasks to perform until she returns. One of which is to post to my blog to include my self-portrait to show how I was sent off to work today.
As you can see, I was back into the CB today. I battled most of the day recovering my 'belongings' as they slipped and drifted out of minimal containment of the rather useless g-string panties.I really have grown to dislike the CB. I find it rather uncomfortable, a burden to manage and conceal. Mistress, on the other hand, seems to enjoy this arrangement and likes how it appears and functions. It has been over a year since Mistress acquired this device and she repeatedly uses it to enforce her ownership of me. I need her to own me and therefore I wear it proudly and willingly, even though I sometimes whine about having to do so.
I have a lot to do around the house this evening to prepare for Mistress's return and therefore I must get busy performing my tasks. Besides posting this blog entry, I must clean up the front room, arrange the Christmas boxes, collate and staple paperwork before preparing myself for her arrival. When she enters the bedroom, I am to be tied to the beams across the ceiling with a dildo deep in my ass. All the while cross-dressed in full makeup, breasts forms and wig wearing my full length wedding gown and appropriate heels.
Like I said, I have a lot to do so I'd better get to it.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Happy to let Her choose
Yesterday my in-laws arrived to celebrate Christmas in our home. We look forward to this yearly gathering and have a good time enjoying the extended family. However, this year had an added twist for me as my Mistress choose to dress me in panties, bra and chastity for the day. I was able to conceal the bra visually with a bulky sweater. Regardless, when I was greeted with hugs from the female members there was certainly a risk of being discovered. I don't believe my niece noticed but my sister in law certainly had her hands directly on the bra straps behind my back. If she had noticed, she didn't make it obvious.
This evening, my Mistress again instructed me to get locked in the CB, put on tight panties and bra before She drove us to go shopping. Soon after we arrived She announced that we were there to shop in the women's department for an outfit for me consisting of either a dress or a skirt and top. After trying on over a dozen combinations together in the dressing, we ended up buying a black pencil skirt and a dark blue button up shirt. The shirt is a see-through fabric that failed to conceal my bright pink bra. We then returned home where I dressed and modeled my new attire, including pantyhose and heels. I am assuming that I may be required to wear it again sometime. For now, it waits in my closet.
My Mistress is really starting to enjoy the power She has over me and I have to admit, I'm happy to let Her have it.
It appears that this year's New Year's resolutions might be more interesting than in years past.
This evening, my Mistress again instructed me to get locked in the CB, put on tight panties and bra before She drove us to go shopping. Soon after we arrived She announced that we were there to shop in the women's department for an outfit for me consisting of either a dress or a skirt and top. After trying on over a dozen combinations together in the dressing, we ended up buying a black pencil skirt and a dark blue button up shirt. The shirt is a see-through fabric that failed to conceal my bright pink bra. We then returned home where I dressed and modeled my new attire, including pantyhose and heels. I am assuming that I may be required to wear it again sometime. For now, it waits in my closet.
My Mistress is really starting to enjoy the power She has over me and I have to admit, I'm happy to let Her have it.
It appears that this year's New Year's resolutions might be more interesting than in years past.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Happy to get you caught up
October 29th, 2010... It was a Friday, the mailman delivered it and I brought it into the house. It was a CB-6000 that She had ordered online and it had arrived. I will remember this day FOREVER.
This device's arrival is the most relationship changing event following the day of our wedding and the birth of our first child. The CB has been nothing short of erotic, sadistic and relentless ever since it was installed on my cock and balls.
I'm going to describe the CB in two lists... What it does and what is does not.
Does:
Does not:
It's been almost two months now since the CB arrived. Since then, it has been installed all but a few days and I don't see any reason this schedule will change.
Guys, regarding a chastity device... Be careful what you ask for or are willing to accept. Your Mistress will love what it does to the both of you and likely not let you out of it.
October 31st, Halloween... Having purchased a used wedding dress at the local thrift store, the price was right and my costume fit our new lifestyle. I made my own veil and acquired white accessories that included panties, a bra, thigh-high hose, heeled slippers and even a garter. It felt wonderful to wear the dress in private and I hope to do so again someday, even if the experience extends beyond our bedroom.
November 1st... This was the first day at work while wearing the CB and I was definitely distracted from performing my employed responsibilities. More often than not I was subjected to an erection created by the unyielding pressure. The relentless texting and messaging with my Mistress throughout the day documented and heightened the experience. By mid-afternoon the day seemed it would never end and we both felt like a couple of horny 20 somethings again. My Mistress and I both felt delighted with the launch of our D/s lifestyle.
December 8th... I took the day off from work and slept in until around 9am. Upon exiting my morning shower, my Mistress presented me with a bright red pair of panties to wear. She also gave me a small card with instructions to leave the house at 11:30 to pick up a purchase at the lingerie shop in the local mall. I was to address the store clerk, give them my name and tell them my Mistress has sent me. At that point I was handed a gift bag with a small envelope attached. In the envelope was instructions to take the bag to the dressing room and put on the contents. The bag contained a bra and hose to match my red panties which I put on before returning to the store. The clerk greeted me and obviously knew of my new attire as she gazed at my chest. Next I was sent across town to pick up a bottle of champagne and a new set of instructions. I soon found myself telling the clerk at an adult toy store that my Mistress had sent me. At that point I was handed another gift bag that contained a set of handcuffs and instructions. These told me to find a book on hold at the library and to read a selected chapter. I read about a man who was blind folded, tied up and whipped before multiple men fucked his ass while he sucked on many cocks. I left the library to meet my Mistress at a restaurant where we ate a nice lunch and giggled about my recent adventure.
This device's arrival is the most relationship changing event following the day of our wedding and the birth of our first child. The CB has been nothing short of erotic, sadistic and relentless ever since it was installed on my cock and balls.
I'm going to describe the CB in two lists... What it does and what is does not.
Does:
- Takes a few weeks to get used to wearing
- Gives sexual control of the wearer to the key-holder
- Elevates libido levels in the wearer and key-holder
Does not:
- Prevent erections (quite the opposite)
- Allow for masturbation
- Turn off or reduce it's impact
It's been almost two months now since the CB arrived. Since then, it has been installed all but a few days and I don't see any reason this schedule will change.
Guys, regarding a chastity device... Be careful what you ask for or are willing to accept. Your Mistress will love what it does to the both of you and likely not let you out of it.
October 31st, Halloween... Having purchased a used wedding dress at the local thrift store, the price was right and my costume fit our new lifestyle. I made my own veil and acquired white accessories that included panties, a bra, thigh-high hose, heeled slippers and even a garter. It felt wonderful to wear the dress in private and I hope to do so again someday, even if the experience extends beyond our bedroom.
November 1st... This was the first day at work while wearing the CB and I was definitely distracted from performing my employed responsibilities. More often than not I was subjected to an erection created by the unyielding pressure. The relentless texting and messaging with my Mistress throughout the day documented and heightened the experience. By mid-afternoon the day seemed it would never end and we both felt like a couple of horny 20 somethings again. My Mistress and I both felt delighted with the launch of our D/s lifestyle.
December 8th... I took the day off from work and slept in until around 9am. Upon exiting my morning shower, my Mistress presented me with a bright red pair of panties to wear. She also gave me a small card with instructions to leave the house at 11:30 to pick up a purchase at the lingerie shop in the local mall. I was to address the store clerk, give them my name and tell them my Mistress has sent me. At that point I was handed a gift bag with a small envelope attached. In the envelope was instructions to take the bag to the dressing room and put on the contents. The bag contained a bra and hose to match my red panties which I put on before returning to the store. The clerk greeted me and obviously knew of my new attire as she gazed at my chest. Next I was sent across town to pick up a bottle of champagne and a new set of instructions. I soon found myself telling the clerk at an adult toy store that my Mistress had sent me. At that point I was handed another gift bag that contained a set of handcuffs and instructions. These told me to find a book on hold at the library and to read a selected chapter. I read about a man who was blind folded, tied up and whipped before multiple men fucked his ass while he sucked on many cocks. I left the library to meet my Mistress at a restaurant where we ate a nice lunch and giggled about my recent adventure.
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