Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Happy Feminine Side

I can't say that I was surprised to find my shampoo and deodorant replaced with femme products this morning. Mistress had alluded to replacing my deodorant just last weekend. Piece by piece, bit by bit, I am looking and now smelling more and more feminine.

Last week, we had an interesting and exciting talk about my feminine tendencies. Where I am quite comfortable with being male, my submissive tendencies are slanting me towards losing male habits and converting to a kinder, gentler person. The external changes, pierced ears, painted toenails, shaved body and now smell have gone far to whittle down my male ego. Lately I have caught myself from saying negative comments and certainly have learned to notice reaction to letting one slip out. As my male ego depletes, Mistress's power and control over me is gaining momentum as well

My female name is 'Kim'. Mistress and I often refer to Kim in the third person. Kim is a slut for makeup, for wigs, for shoes, for clothes and most of all... for sex. Kim is a whore and loves to be abused by Mistress.

So far I am not quite comfortable with calling myself a 'crossdresser' but if a spade is a spade, then I must be a crossdresser. I love to wear brighter, softer and tighter apparel. Mistress and I have been discussing my desires and she seems interested on expanding my femme side to the public. Recently, Mistress mentioned taking a week vacation with Kim, The feelings of joy, excitement and fear combine when I think of the possibilities of being Kim, even if just for a week. Most of all, I relish the enthusiastic tact that Mistress has taking regarding my 'fetish'.

, Submissive Male, aka Kim

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Happy with Mistress

To start with, this post is sort of like 'calling the kettle black' as I have not posted an entry to my blog in quite some time. Being relatively new to this blog site I can only imagine that many blogs start agressively to taper off over time. My actions are certainly evidence of such a pattern.


MsMarie, we miss you. Your blog has been quite the inspiration for Mistress and I. Your lack of blog posts has not gone unnoticed. Mistress and I have reluctantly had to venture elsewhere to both entertain ourselves and seek influencial direction.


Having said this, my Mistress has evolved into a research wizard and become enlightened with a broader range of D/s information. Her latest habits are having a definate impact on our relationship. She has turned into a powerful woman who enjoys using me to demonstrate her newfound knowledge.

As it is my preference, I feel owned by Mistress. Her thoughtful patterns of domination have improved her ability to use me on a regular basis now. She has most definately blossomed into a goddess of intent and set goals to acheive her own desires without simply providing for mine.

She is now most comfortable with her ability to control me without inhibition. This particular issue had been a frustratingly hurtfull condition just a few short months ago. Since this hurtle has been overcome, we are more able to enjoy our D/s relationship wthout damaging side effects.

On a personal level, events have enlightened  me to understand my desires. I am much more aware of the advantages of being forced to partake in affairs that I naturally wish to do. Chastity for one, is no longer an intense turn-on for me and thus gives Mistress the positive power to use it to her benefit. The ease at which Mistress is now able to command respect is a huge advantage for her and having instruments available for her sole benefit is quite powerful.

Forced feminization, while still progressing, is also becoming quite a tool for Mistress. She increasely enjoys the ability to entertain herself and dominate me as her submissive. She now regularly desides on my appearance and dress. She enjoys researching and acquiring new garments to subject me to. What was once an occasional 'beautification' has now become a continual event. Not only does she control my clothing, she monitors and corrects my cleanliness and natural virility. I have always enjoyed my mental ability to partake in feminization but being forced to do so on Mistress's schedule is a most gratifying scenario for me.

Mistress enjoys having a cock in her pussy. She also rather enjoys giving blowjobs. This does however pose a problem for us as my natural ability to maintain constantly high labido levels are regularly compromised following my orgasms. Far to often, for us both, my orgasm concludes our encounters and rarely occurs timely enough to satisfy the both of us. We are working on solving this delema. The main reason I am writing this blog entry today is due to last night's wonderful encounter on this particular subject.


Here's what transpired:

Leading up to last night, Mistress and I had been reading stories on Literotica. We have been enjoying finding fictional stories and making them a real part of our life. We certainly have a few favorites that we have shared and these include the subjects of training, domination and humilation.

Last night's success started early this past week on evening after I returned from work. Mistress Skype'd demanding me to install the CB and insert a butt plug. This request although is not uncommon was so this time as it occured much earlier than I had expected. I did as I was told and immediately performed the task. Later that night, Mistress sent me to the shower, dressed me for a sexual encounter and the proceeded to fuck me quite agressively with one of her larger black strapon dildos.

A couple of mornings later, I was intercepted on my way out the door as I left for work. I soon found out that my nipples would be subjected to a rather intensive all-day 'grooming'. This assult consisted of two pieces of sandpaper adhered inside my shirt. If I tried to explain what this attack did to me I wouldn't be doing it justice. Do it yourself if you really need to know.

Yesterday afternoon Mistress and I discussed our goals and frustrations of having cock in her pussy. This put the wheels in motion.

Later in the evening I was sent to the shower and followed by feminizing myself from head to toe with a wig, makeup, breast forms, bra, new dress, tight panties, thigh highs and my favorite Mary Jane heels. During the day I shopped for matching accessories of necklace, wrist watch and handheld purse, all in pink to match the pink in my new sundress that I was now wearing for the first time.

I Skype'd Mistress in the front room to announce my readiness. Following her completing a chapter of a Literotica story she came into our bedroom to see her pretty submissive. I was all a glow showing myself to her with what I felt to be my best attempt at feminizing to date. She seemed to be quite pleased with my results as well. Mistress acquired a few garments for herself and rushed into the shower to prepare for what certainly would be a night to remember.

She returned to me with a cup of water and a Viagra. This was immediately followed with a application of 'delay cream' and a natural non-latex condum on her cock that I wield and maintain for her. Rather than compromise my new sundress, Mistress had thoughtfully set out a very sexy nightgown for me to change into and I did so.

Now, if Mistress were telling this story, she would likely spend more time explaining what happened next.

Both the Viagra and the cream were taking effect and I was both physically and mentally ready to use them. Based on statements that Mistress had been making, she was attempting to control the encounter that would involve installing her strapon and fucking her pretty submissive slut of a husband. I was quite pleased that she didn't become angry or aggressive due to my failure to comply to her unsuccessful attempt to have me assist her. I blaintly disregarded her request for my chosing and acguiring of a dildo to mount.

Instead, I pulled down the covers on the bed. Thankfully, she took the clue and lied down. I removed my Mary Janes and joined her on the bed.

It only took a few minutes of my oral assault on her cunt for her to show interest in the condition of her cock. I knew it was quite rigid and ready but I was enjoying myself between her legs while I messed up my lip gloss and negotiated my long hair. I gave myself a few more minutes of what I thought was a personal thrill before I lifted my gown and positioned the hem of the tight panties below my crotch.

I mounted Mistress. She orgasmed in a very short time. Much to my delight, her cunt sprayed and gushed providing me with a favorite condition of mine, being wet and smelling like pussy. I continued to fuck her without hesitation or concern for my own unwanted sexual release. Her sexual gratification was all that I wanted.

I helped her turn over onto hands and knees allowing me to reenter her from behind. Her wave after wave of orgasms continued to provide me with the gush of fluids that I remained to enjoy.

Mistress suggested that we move her to the edge of the bed while I stood beside. This turned out to be a excellent approach and angle into her cunt. I easily swayed and pounded into her while grasping her hips for support and control. Our cock was in prime form as it reframed from eruption as it pounded into her pussy as it gushed and sprayed over what not included my entire legs, feet and onto the floor.

Time was irrelevent as I continued to fuck Mistress. At one point, I let my gaze defer from her backside to notice the clock on the dresser displaying 2:34. At that point I had been fucking her in a constant wave of orgasms for over two hours.

Certain that Mistress was satisfied and that my goal had been reached, the condum was removed. I mounted her in the missionary position as she played with my thoughtfully prepared nipples behind my breast forms. The locks of my long hair brushed her face as unloaded my cum into her swollen cunt.

In the end, Mistress glowed almost as bright as I had during my time of feminization a few hours before.

We removed and replaced the soiled sheets on the bed and settled in for a blistfull sleep. I woke this morning just after 10am next to Mistress with another hardon. She rolled onto her back as I positioned myself to penetrate her and play with her clit. Over the next half hour or so, I was able to get her to orgasm many times. I sure love how accommodating her cunt gets after a night of hard fucking.

I absolutely want to repeat this event tonight... Wish me luck even though good fortune is on my side.

, Happy

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Happy to reply in my defense

My latest post may be and has actually been considered a 'one-sided' perspective from a submissive who was told to post his feelings regarding a FLR contract. As instructed, I wrote about my feelings such as they are.

Soon after posting my feelings and thoughts regarding our new contract, a follower named Tamara posted her comment. At first read of Tamara's comment I got rather defensive and thankfully didn't immediately defend my position. You might say my submissive side took control and I referred to my Mistress for guidance. My Mistress chose to post a rebuttal that clarified my one-sided statements.

Reading Tamara's bio will tell you that she is a 'vanilla wife' to a 'submissive husband'. After thinking about her situation and her apprehension to work on a FLR, per posted comment, I wonder whether she is missing the point or rewards of being a Mistress. If so, she is not alone as her view of a FLR being 'work' for the female is well documented in articles and blogs throughout the Internet.


In the case of a husband and wife, both must benefit from the effort of maintaining the relationship. Since I have been married for 20 plus years, I know from experience that even a vanilla relationship takes effort.


Why do this? How do I benefit? How does she benefit? What effort takes place? Tough questions to answer and not unlike a vanilla relationship, the benefit of a FLR must outweigh the effort. Another similarity is that you will likely benefit only by the amount of effort you put into your relationship.


But I digress... Back to the point. What is in it for my Mistress?


My Mistress does benefit from our FLR. First and foremost she gains by receiving additional respect and dedication from me, her submissive partner. As a submissive I no longer have the ability to flex my male ego and thus continuously and consistently devote myself to her.  Even if I do stray from a preferred behaviour, it is entirely her right to ignore or correct me.


Why dominate me?


At first my Mistress couldn't understand why she should desire to dominate me. From my point of view, in many ways, she has been making most of the decisions anyway. For example, very little if any of the details of our wedding were decided by me. Mother Nature not I could change her timing for raising a family. I am a foremost a provider and to a lesser extent, a resolver. Now with the FLR, I can reverently relinquishment my authority that most often caused friction in our vanilla relationship. Without this potential to clash with my spouse, I am much more free to express myself.


BDSM is in the bedroom. FLR is everywhere


Male sexual relief impairs his ability to continuously commit to his partner. I know from experience that after an orgasm a man loses willpower. Since I am not a doctor or a chemist, I cannot explain the reason for the degrade in dedication. Regardless, it happens and I can't seem to avoid it when it does. Unlike BDSM, the dynamics of the FLR restrict the sexual release of the submissive without having to avoid physical contact. In fact, a most enlightening dynamic of the FLR is that physical contact is expected to increase. Without male orgasm release, the willingness of the submissive to pleasure his Mistress becomes consistent. With regular tease and denial techniques administered to the submissive male, his sexual, physical and emotion energy grows to benefit the Mistress. So much so, that her enjoyment and sexual needs are his primary goal as he becomes complacent and resistant to his own release.


Women can lead


From a very young age, we are taught that males lead females. The most obvious event of the learning process happens when we dance and date. Boys ask girls out on dates or offer to dance. How many marriage engagements are started by the woman? I certainly haven't heard of any.

Growing up as a compliant male does occur eventually and until his life gets beyond the need for masculine stereotypes, his behavior is more manufactured than it is natural. If the submissive male is able to find a woman who is willing and able to pursue the dominate role, he will have found a match for life and a FLR is born.


Defense rests... For now

Monday, April 18, 2011

Happy to be back and under contract

I am under contract. Mistress and I both signed a D/s contract that outlines our FLR. Signing the contract requires us to submit entirely to my wife, now Mistress, dominating me, her submissive, for a period of one month.

Mistress owns the contract as well as me. Upon my agreement, I gave myself entirely to her and now she controls me, uses me and trains me. I am now her slave, her toy, her patsy, her fool. My body is hers to maintain, shave, cleanse and dress. My goal is to fulfill her desires and satisfy her needs.

Mistress also committed to our FLR when she signed the contract. She is now dedicated to taking care of me, her submissive male. Her promise is to control, train, direct and care for her slave, to do so purely for her own emotional and physical benefit. She expects to use harsh punishment, degrading humiliation and selfish tactics to gain dominance and respect.

Our contract has been effective for just over a week now. I have grown more each day, increasing my devotion to my Mistress as she explores new ways to control and train me. Her dominance starts early each morning with her use of urination and feminizing before sending me off to work. Going to work allows my body to recover from the physical abuse that is forced upon me on most nights. I am whipped, bound, gagged, pinched and penetrated. No part of my body is off limits as Mistress own it entirely.

I am cared for, have purpose and have an elevated desire to please. I am fairly certain my Mistress is enjoying my magnified willingness to surrender as she is increasingly exploring new ways to dominate and control me. I really am happy now and expect to be throughout the month.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Happy Saint Patrick's Day



I hope you enjoy your day as much as Mistress and I have done. Here's a image of the celebration outfit that Mistress put on me. She strapped me to the front door and dressed me. It is hard to tell in this picture but my tie was lighted with flashing bulbs.

In case you have been following my blog... Yes, our D/s week has been extended for an additional week after the mutual decision was made late last week. As of now, we are scheduled to return to a vanilla relationship on Sunday.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Happy week in review

Here's a list of the D/s events that happened to me this week:

  • Strap-on sex
  • Horsewhipped
  • Golden showers
  • Gagged
  • 24/7 Chastity
  • Cunt worship
  • Pet caged
  • Tampon wear
  • Blindfolded
  • Spanked
  • Foot worship
  • Handcuffed
  • Paddled
  • Sucked dildo
  • Butt plugged
  • Feminized
  • Ate, doggy style
  • Gave massage
  • Swallowed cum
  • Gave pedicure
  • Asshole worship
  • Nipple torture
  • Ass fisted
  • Electro-sex
  • Ate creampie

I thoroughly enjoyed Her attention and dedication to dominating me this week. Comparably, my occasional pleasing and pleasuring of Mistress was overshadowed by Her desire to regularly abuse me.

What a week !!!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Happy bride

My wife, the groom, and I have renewed our FLR vows. We both agreed to a prenuptial that consists of a one week a month D/s schedule. Today is day 4 of our return to FLR week for this month.

Even though I wasn't actually a virgin, I wore white.

We consummated our marriage with Her, again my Mistress, giving me a thorough thrashing with Her horsewhip. There is somewhat of a dispute regarding how many of my bruises were caused by Her release on my backside. Her position on the matter is that some of them were caused by the yard work that I performed last weekend. Regardless, She certainly left Her mark on me.

For the most part, our return to FLR has gone quite favorably for the both of us. I have been focused on letting Her control our D/s events and She has been much more aggressive at doing so.

We seem to be going through a reversal of wills whereas I have resolved myself to the understanding that we will return to vanilla after week's end. She on the other hand has taken a stance that we will not be returning to vanilla sex and refrain from doing so until we again return to a FLR.

I have more blogging to do once I get my thoughts organized enough to do so. But for now, as you can see, we are back and I must say, better than ever!

Thanks for the heartfelt thoughts and concerns on both of our blogs. The support is greatly appreciated !!!