Happy Thoughts

Perverted... A word not normally considered to describe traits of a hetero-sexual male. But what about the hetero-sexual submissive male thoughts? Oh how do the tables turn, spin even.

Mistress has asked me to describe why I am able to accept being perverted. Besides admitting to being perverted, I have also admitted to being a slut and a whore. Thankfully, these thoughts exist within the confines of her bedroom. Regardless, Mistress has 'advised' me to post this blog entry.

Perverted, the word, defined

• adjective: (used of sexual behavior) showing or appealing to bizarre or deviant tastes
• adjective: marked by immorality; deviating from what is considered right or proper or good

I am quite sure the first definition is plausible to me. Finding a definition of bizarre and deviant might be needed. I assume that both definitions are a matter of judgement.

Slut, the word, defined

• noun: a dirty untidy woman
• noun: a woman adulterer

Damn... I totally missed on this one. I really wanted it! The femme in me, Kim needs to be a slut.

Whore, the word, defined

• noun: a woman who engages in sexual intercourse for money
• verb: corrupt by lewd intercourse
• verb: have unlawful sex with a whore

The second definition is quite likely but again, subject to the definition and judgement of lewd. The other two definitions definitely don't apply to me.

Mistress sat me down for a discussion regarding my acceptance of being perverted, a slut, a whore and many other submissive, degrading phrases that I have been called in the past year. I do find these quite degrading even though I regularly and openly admit to them under the direction and control of my Mistress. Being torn between the thoughts of disgust and desire was bothering me until Mistress said she was OK with my desires. As a result, I am feeling much more comfortable with my thoughts. Her confidence on the subject has put me at ease.

I like the word 'Kinky'

Kinky, is a synonym of perverted so now I am back to the definition and judgement issue again. Being kinky 24 hours a day sounds fun to me whereas being perverted 24 hours a day does not.

 I do have a favorite phrase for kinky... 'It is only kinky the first time'

I have always considered trying everything once and repeating the fun stuff as often as possible. Even before our FLR when I was vanilla and naive to the power of our D/s relationship. Last year, I certainly was never called a slut or a whore. Now I want and even need to be both.

My table has turned.

, Happy